CRAP

complete and TOTAL CRAP!
I want this don't you understand!!! This is me talking to myself....... I want this so bad yet every time I give myself an inch I take a mile what in this wierd world is wrong with me...I know that we are our own worst critics and I think this falls in that category, like only we can screw ourselves up more than the next guy but seriously how do I get my head out of my own RUMP. any advise let me know.

WTF Nightmares?

I had one of the worst nightmare ever this morning! I dreamed that my husband died!!!! I totally woke up crying and was stuck in nightmare land for a good hour after waking up! I really didn't like it! But all is good now, and I looked up what death symbolizes in a dream dictionary and it means there is going to be a birth so watch out girls you might be expecting!!!! Anyway hopefully I don't have another one of those! A out

ok.........and what do you want me to do about it?

My Computer Blows!!!!! I am sure we have all been there, but it seems that mine decides to take a rather large crap on my living room floor the one day I need to atleast check my e-mail. Well Thank God (for real please do) for this wonderful freaking technology!!!!! and Great news I am back online which I am REALLY sure the rest of the world cares right!

~A~

GRRRRRRR

Work called tonight about 8:15 to let me know there wasn't enough stuff for me to come in this happens on a semi-regular basis at my job and it gets really annoying. I am an overnight stocker at the commisary on the Air Force Base where I live and I make a lot of money an hour i just don't get a whole lot of hours which also sucks but I suppose I would rather just stay home if there is no work to do.My goals have changed though I want to join the Air Force and I am taking the steps to lose weight and get in shape to get to basic sometime this year. although it seem sometimes I am not working hard enough to get this weight off I mean I have about 25 more pounds to lose and then I am well on my way.Man it is just so hard to stay determined to workout and eat right but I think as soon as I start seeing results on the scale I might get REALLY motivated. Seriously though I am totally excited, I want this more than I have ever wanted anything else so when you really want it, it doesn't take much effort right? I mean my husband is already in and it was really easy for him, when he went in he weighed 123 pounds and could run a mile and a half in 10 minutes, I am 180 and it takes me an hour to walk around the block (lol) but I will do this and the biggest reason is I don't want to work at these dead end jobs for the rest of my life I want to be able to tell me kids they can be on the soccer team or in ballet because I have the money to run them here or there. I also want to make my mom proud, She has always worked her butt off to provide for my sister and I and when she runs into someone from way back she can say well my oldest is in the Air Force and my youngest is a school teacher. and she will hopefully feel like she did her job as our mother to teach us to make the most of life and to reach for the stars because we can do anything we set our minds to. well I guess that is enough on that topic. More tomorrow I am sure.................

Facebook

yeah facebook!!!!!

Oops

oh crap i was still in bed this afternoon when my girlfriend called to let me know that when we do our Yoga today I should wear something form fitting but comfortable and she woke me up at almost 1 o'clock. i was like oh my gosh I sorry I totally missed my alarm but i am getting up and getting dressed I will see you soon...... Then I tried to get out of bed and my entire body was like NNNNOOOOOOO!!!!!! we have been working out the last week hard core we did some jillian michaels, and some cardio max from the biggest loser and today we are doing Yoga I am kind of excited for the change of pace but we will see how my body likes it afterward.....I can barely walk now, but if I am going to join the USAF I have to get in shape so I need to lose 25 pounds I can totally do that right?

I Wonder......

I Wonder what Bruno could be dreaming about... is he dreaming about chasing rabbits or the unattainable hunt? Maybe he dreams about being a super doggy.... I just wonder some crazy things sometimes. he is a really smart dog my husband and I taught him "tell me" which instead of "speak" he uses this throat sound and actually tries to say what you want him to well I guess we imagine that it sounds how we want it to, but whatever right.